Limp prejac

My last girlfriend dumped me over a year ago. She was curvy and beautiful.

She picked me up in a bar and took me to her place to fuck. We fucked for about five minutes. I came and she didn't.

We hooked up again next week and this time we fooled around for hours exploring each other in detail. At some point, I stared to leak. I could feel a slow pulse of release coming from my limp cock. I ignored it and continued to make out. 

Eventually she said, "I want you inside me". She lay back and watched my flaccid penis fail to get hard. She said "You're really wet" and smiled.She knew the sheen on the head of my cock was not pre cum but my over excitement. I started to try to make myself hard.

"Don't do that" she scolded me. "Is it me? Don't I turn you on?" I told her I thought she was very sexy, it wasn't her. She pushed me onto my back and took me in her mouth.

Still I couldn't get it up. 

She jerked me off.

I stayed limp.

She was soaking wet. I brought her to orgasm with my fingers. Our next date I came prepared. A box of little blue pills helped me to get an erection. She grabbed my dick and rubbed her clit to orgasm with my cock head.

Then she dressed and left to spend time with some friends. I walked out with her part of the way. The whole time she stroked my penis over my jeans as we walked down the street. I asked her to stop but she smiled and carried on.

By the time we parted I had cum in my shorts, no orgasm, just a cold sticky mess. 

Next week we were watching netflix in her bed and she reached over to rub my crotch and said "you're hard!" (I had taken a pill just before I got to her place.)

We stripped each other naked and I entered her, missionary style again. After half a dozen strokes she told me she was sore and I should pull out. I did and we fooled around some during which I had another orgasmless, handsfree ejaculation.

She never remarked on these when they happened. I think she knew though. How could she not? The next few times I saw her, we fooled around stopping short of penetration. If I tried to get hard she would stop me. I wasn't allowed to stroke myself, to take any more pills and I always ended up dribling out my seed with no orgasm. Every time we were in public she would grope my crotch openly. She never said it but I know she was humiliating me for my inability to get hard. And every time she did it, I made a mess in my underwear.

She broke up with me after a few weeks, saying we didn't fuck enough to keep her interested. Since then I can barely get semi erect even while masturbating. Sometimes hours of frustrating jerking is required. And sometimes I leak as soon as I start browsing porn. I've been unable to get a date since.